So many thoughts in the early morning hours......
I have been on quite a journey in the last month, one in which I have been learning much about myself and much about the nature of my Father God.
I rather contradict myself on so many issues. I'm not quite sure how that happens. I have never been one to follow the crowd, yet I am a people pleaser, but yet I'm not really. I'm a social butterfly, but I love being at home. I'm totally in love with the Lord, but yet I really have so many doubts about Him and who He is in my life.
This week, well, more like today, I am starting on a new journey. After watching the documentary entitled, "Fat, Sick and Nearly Dead", I have decided that I too am tired of being those things. I know that my health is not what it should and could be. I know that I carry entirely too much weight. I know that I have to do something to reboot my system. SO, I'm going on a juice fast for who knows how long. http://jointhereboot.com/ I am not going to set a definite time frame. I know myself and that only sets me up for failure. This will be a day to day process. The only thing I know for certain is that I'm at a breaking point. I have tried so many "diets" that didn't work. I've exercised until my body hurt. I have cried and cried some more. 6-7 years ago (yeah, I can't even remember now), I lost 62 lbs and was on top of the world. All but 10 lbs of that came back in the last few years and I'm sick of it. I'm tired of being this way. I'm tired of looking at myself and not only disliking the physical image, but the spiritual image.
The spiritual image is one that has been transforming in the past month. The Lord has graciously picked me up once again and set my feet on a new path. I have found JOY that I never knew I could have and that's all good. No, that's GREAT! That's where I need to be.....on the right spiritual path, taking one step at a time. Physically I have to get there too. I can't continue to grow spritually if I'm literally growing physically. It's not going to work.
So, here I go on a journey I've never taken before......and believing that my Abba Father will be there to greet me at every turn, ever bump in the road and at the finish line as well.
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