Intensive Care for the Christian Unschooler. Much needed this week....
“This week we want to…” get our pool cleaned up once and for all. Crystal clear water but now the dreaded black algae has invaded the liner. I didn't realize what it was until now. If I can't get it out, we'll have to replace the liner AGAIN (did it 2 years ago). *sigh* I'm going drastic here. Have read that you can super dose it with regular chlorine bleach, scrub the heck out of it and see some results......sometimes. I do NOT want the expense of changing that liner. Owning a home is sometimes a royal pain in the behind. First a $1100 AC repair that we couldn't afford and now our one and only source of entertainment is stricken with the PLAGUE? Well at least a liner will only cost me $150. Good grief, I am NOT a money tree!
“The kids are…” playing Sorry with 2 of their friends on our living room floor. This is big for us. We don't normally have kids inside for some reason. I think our dogs being so obnoxious is one reason.
“I am learning….” that people don't like me and that I'm not sure how to deal with that. I have a LOT of people who do like me, but the ones who don't really really cast a shadow over everything.
“I am struggling with…” the fact that my husband doesn't have the same dreams for our life that I do. If I want to be with him (and I do), then I am going to have to abandon my dreams. He is content with how things are right now. I need God to help me be content as well.
“This week is the first time….” I have fully realized that I have never been in control of anything in my life.........and I'm pretty scared about my future.
OOPS...forgot one....
“I am grateful…” for my children who love me unconditionally.
*hugs*
ReplyDeletePraying for wisdom and peace. I have lots of people who don't like me-- I guess I make some uncomfortable but I know I can't fix other people's feelings and am not responsible for how they respond, only how I respond to them. As far as your husband goes, praying that the Lord would bring you both to the same place at the time. We have been in places where we had different dreams and often I have had to choose to give up my things for his sake-- thing is now I can't imagine any other way. We ahve also found that when one of us has a dream or feels the urge for change but not the other one it is only a matter of time (if it God's will) that the other will have the same mindset, though often, especially if the timing isn't right yet, we will flip. So we wait for BOTh of us to feel it THEN proceed.
ReplyDeleteSorry to hear about your pool liner. :( Pool maintenance can be a huge pain.
ReplyDeleteDon't fret about those who may not "like" you. They probably just don't truly know you.
I hope you and your husband can find a shared dream, or at least meet in the middle somehow. Marriage takes compromise.
Greg has ALWAYS followed me on things. My dreams have always been HIS dreams. I always questioned the validity of that. I mean no couple can agree on 100%, right? For 18 years, he has done what I wanted to do without question. He is an amazing man. To actually hear him say "NO" to something was shocking. So, I am more than willing to give up something I have been dreaming about because if it's not what he wants too, then I don't want to want it either.
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