Project 365- Day 16, January 16, 2011

This is a "me" post.  I have to start seeing me for who I really am and not what others think I am or think I should be.  This is me.  I'm 40 years old.  I have brown eyes and brown hair that is starting to gray.  I like to be at home.  I love Sci-Fi type movies and anything about time travel really thrills me.  I am scared to fly and have never been on a plane.  I have no relationship at all with my dad or my mom.  I hate drinking....and that's why I have no relationship with my parents.  They love it.....a little too much.  I hate being rocked in a rocking chair.  Let me do my own rocking.  I adore pecans, Pepsi and pizza with everything.  I don't drink Pepsi anymore, but I still love it.  I keep my toenails polished at all times, even in the Winter.  I love ankle bracelets.  I love to cook.  I cry a lot, over sad things and happy things.  I love essential oils and believe God gave them to us for healing.  I get frustrated really easily.  I adore my 4 children and miss the one that I lost.  I miss my grandma something fierce.  The best friends I have are people I met online.  I don't think many "real life" people like me all that much.  I'm starting to be ok with that.  My husband is my soul mate.  I can't breathe without him.  I hate the institution of "church", but I adore my Savior Jesus Christ.  Oh yeah, most of the time I call Him Yeshua.  I pray a lot. My Abba Father thinks I'm amazing.  He has a special purpose for me that I don't always understand.  Despite what others think of me, whether they can't stand me or love me, I have to be true to my convictions.  I know what I believe.  I know what passions and dreams that God, my Abba, Yahweh has placed down deep inside me.  I know He loves me and that gives me the freedom to be me.....